Two weeks ago my whole world changed. I was in the hospital with the induction underway. LMI was born and in a way, so was I.
People keep telling me how happy I look, A says that I am the opposite of PPD and its true, I am happy. BUT, what was the perception of me before? How sad did I appear to the world? I thought I put up a great front in public, always smiling and trying not to let on just how devastated and emotionally disconnected I was, but I guess I wasn't as good an actress as I thought.
The last two weeks have been filled with the most extreme highs. Not one moment that I have spent with my daughter has been taken for granted. We have bonded and I am so in love with her - and my husband. I find myself still confused about how this all happened, but then I realize that its not important. She's here and my life is whole again.
-R.
I feel exactly the same way...no moment taken for granted and my life feeling whole again.
ReplyDeleteHowever, I also wonder how I was perceived before.
I am so happy to hear this! Congratulations, again!
ReplyDeleteTwo weeks already? Time flies! Enjoy her! You deserve all this happiness after what you've been through!
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ReplyDeletei don't think there is any worth in worrying about how you were perceived- the happiness from having her here and being her mother radiates from your heart and soul, so of course people will comment! and you are allowed this- enjoy each second and let it envelope you!
you went thru some very difficult times... very dark times, very depressing times, blah times, waiting, one-step-forward, three steps back... not a lot of sunshiney things happened during that time to break that feeling of sadness, so i am sure people noticed NOT that you were a sad sack, but more likely that you were enduring some tough times, all in a row. to see you happy is a huge relief and source of happiness for those who love and care for you.
there is a quote from someone, and i think it fits in your case, it goes something like 'as deep a cavern as sorrow has carved within you, this will be your capacity for joy', or some such sentiment.
i am so happy thinking of you enjoying your time as a new mom! and your husband as a new dad! congratulations! how about a picture?!
-soulshine
It might be that you are not being compared to your previous self, but to other mothers of newborns. It's all too common to look tired or overwhelmed rather than simply happy.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you're radiant. Long may it continue.
My heart smiles for you dear friend...LisainSK
ReplyDeleteHow beautiful....and yes we all have days or times when we are down but as long as you pick yourself up shake it all off and focus again on the positives without the lows we would not have contrast and actually appreciate the highs..
ReplyDeleteHow wonderful. Congratulations on your new life. :))
ReplyDeleteYAY! I love this, I can just imagine your smile, your glow, your radiance. :)
ReplyDeleteI can't speak for the general public, but I have always perceived you as a strong woman trying to make the best out of a bad situation. And now with this miracle in your life, your blog posts are positively glowing with light and love. It is so wonderful to read!!! I'm glad parenting is only serving to strengthen your love for your husband, and that you have bonded so well with LMI!
ReplyDeleteIt brings tears to me to read how happy you are. I really liked what Soulshine had to write. Enjoy this time!
ReplyDeleteYes, the quote that Soulshine gave certainly describes the scenario to a t. It only makes sense that after all the pain, your joy is as great as it is. I wouldn't worry about how you were perceived before - all that matters now is that you finally have the joy in your life that you have been waiting for. I'm glowing for you as well!
ReplyDelete:) Beautiful. <3
ReplyDeleteI know that feeling, and it's a great one!! :)
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post :) Congratulations!!!
ReplyDeleteWow I can't believe I've followed this blog for MONTHS and we don't even get to see any pictures!!! I'm done following!
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