Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Updates

My Boobie passed away at the end of November. She was 94 and lived a full life. Her life was not an easy one - she emigrated to Canada from Eastern Europe in 1935 when she was only 16. She got married ten years later and my mother was her miracle child. I wrote about her here when we announced our pregnancy with LMI. She was so excited.
My Boobie was a strong woman and I know that I get my fight from her. She taught me about love and family and I am the mother I am largely because of the values she and my other grandmother taught me. I love you Boobie.

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We had our consult with the genetics counselor about testing our remaining 11 embryos. After a lot of thought and back and forth, we took the plunge and decided to test them. Ultimately, in the end, I can't live through another pregnancy (should I be so lucky to have one) where there is constant worry about the health of the baby.

They called from the lab on Friday. All our embryos survived the the thaw and the biopsy and our refrozen. The results should take about four weeks, but hopefully we can get them sooner. It is not consuming my thoughts, but I do think about it...a lot. Statistically, we should have a fair amount of normals, but this is me we are talking about and I don't fall on the right side of the stats, so hopefully we will have some. If they all come back as abnormal or no result I don't know where I will go from there. But I can't allow myself to go there now.

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There are three more work days until the break. 3! Can you tell that I am in desperate need of some RNR. Happy Holidays - wishing everyone a great new year.

-R.

7 comments:

  1. I am so sorry for your loss. Your Boobie sounds amazing
    Hoping so hard for you and these embies!!! xoxoxo

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  2. Hugs...Boobie! I am counting down the days until break too! GOSH do I need it! But very little R and R is on the agenda...more like packing. Keep us posted!!

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  3. I am sorry for your loss too. Age doesnt make it easier.

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  4. I'm sorry for your loss, R. It sounds like your Boobie was a very classy lady. I'm glad the she got to meet LMI before her time came to leave the earth.

    Keeping my fingers cropssed and hoping for good news from the lab.

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  5. so sorry about your boobie (what a sweet, endearing name for her).

    with 11 tested, your odds are so good! so, so good.
    hope the 4 weeks go fast- are they doing the testing in house or sending them out these days?

    take care, r!

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  6. I'm so sorry for your loss. I know that leaves a hole in your heart.

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  7. I am usually a quiet follower of your blog, but wanted to post that I am sorry for your loss and hope that the wait on the genetics test results goes fast! Here's to a happier and healthier new year!

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