Lots Going On

I have full on pregnancy brain. I can't find my words and I am forgetting everything these days. Sometimes it's funny (for others to watch), but like on Wednesday it was so not. I wore a hairband - something that doesn't happen regularly and it literally threw me off my game. It was sunny when I was driving to work so I put my glasses on top of my head and put on my sunglasses. When I got to work, I couldn't find my glasses. I could see enough to not fall over or anything, but everything was a blur and in had a terrible headache from squinting. After work was when it happened. I had a hormonal breakdown. I was in the car with A. and i lost it. We were on our way to the rehearsal for my brother's wedding and the tears and emotional crying just started flowing. I was hysterical that I wouldn't be able to see the wedding and how I don't have time to get new glasses. We called my optometrist at home and figured out a plan. I calmed down a bit. The next morning I found my glasses on my nightstand. The stupid hairband confused me and inlet the house without them. I felt like a complete idiot.

I still needed to see the eye Dr as I have a cyst like thing on my lid and I needed a new prescription so I went Thursday after work. The cyst turns onto be no big deal, but it will need to be drained -OUCH, but more concerning was what else he found. Fluid is now around my macula. Apparently this is bad and can be cause by...................stress. Why would i have stress? Oh fuck. I have an appointment set-up for this week with the specialist to figure this all out.

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Last night was the stagette for my soon-to-be SIL. Her andd her friends are all early twenties so I was sure that pregnancy and babies wouldn't be a huge topic of conversation. I was wrong. I overhears one of her friends saying something aboutnshe will never have a child and that of course she would have problems. I did interrupt to her and told her to not worry herself right now (she been married for a month). She said that today she was told by a OBGYN that she has a 40% chance conceiving. I again told her to not listen to an OBGYN and go see a RE if she has legitimate concerns. She then asked if I have " done the fertility meds" oh honey you have no idea..." yes". I left it at that as I didn't think it was the appropRiate time to get intoit, but plan to connect with her this weekend and help her understand her options and answer any questions she may have.

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It's my brother's wedding tomorrow! I'm so excited. The wedding will be at a hotel so A. and I will be staying over for two nights. Infeel like we are getting a stay cation. And it couldn't come at a better time.

-R.