I am not letting my guard down with this miracle pregnancy. Last time, I truly thought everything would be ok and I was completely blindsided by the miscarriage. I won’t let that happen again. A. is more than 100% convinced that this is our miracle. That it is finally our turn to have the happy ending.
Going for betas every other day is both reassuring and terrifying. I find myself a nervous wreck until they call with the results (2633), but then I find some peace for a short while only to relieve the entire the experience. I don’t want to rush time until an ultrasound (no clue when that will be), but I need to know how this is going to end up. Are we really going to get the happy ending and a take home baby? I hope so, but I am not convinced yet.
We haven’t shared this with anyone IRL except my dad, but I am uncomfortable about this. AL doesn’t know, nor the GC or CCRM. I go back and forth in my head about what to do, but I am leaning towards going ahead with the DE GC plan as well. A. and I want a big family and we are both ready to get off this ride. Also, I am not sure if this is a one-time wonder. There are stories (urban legends) of people that get pregnant a few months into their surrogacy pregnancy, so in essence this would be the same, only in reverse direction. I am definitely going to tell the GC before we set a transfer date as it is only fair. I will be honest and hopefully she will be supportive and still want to go ahead with the transfer.
Am I crazy for wanting to this? Is it being greedy? If you know of stories of people that have children a few months apart, I would love hear them.