Yesterday A. and I went to see SJ. I brought A. along for the visit because I really need him to understand how scared and reserved I am with all of this. He is characteristically optimistic - almost to a fault, and this terrifies me as well. SJ was amazing (as usual). She really helped A. see where I was coming from and I think he gets it. It took a while, a lot of explaining and rephrasing, but in the end he got it. We left her office feeling excited to share our news with our immediate families.
When we first decided to start a family, I imagined how I would tell my parents the news. It was going to be this magical moment where we just shocked and surprised everyone. Over the last four years, that dream disappeared. My parents have been a part of this every step of the way (they even waited in the waiting for all my local retrievals) so to think that my dream was becoming my reality is amazing. I couldn't bring myself to say the words so A. did. Of course he did it in a cute, funny way, but the expression and look on my mom's face was priceless. She was in some major shock. My brother was also super excited and overwhelmed. It was a really great night.
Tonight we told A.'s family. His mom broke into instant tears and his dad needed to hear the words a few times before it registered. My SIL and BIL were also there and very excited for us. It was very special.
I will say this - I am SO not ready to have pregnancy talk. Tonight, questions were flying and I had no answers. Do I have an OB? No. How long will I need to be monitored? I don't know. What does my RE think about such and such? I don't know. I also don't really care. In fact, I was feeling rather uncomfortable with all the pregnancy related talk - even though it was about me.
At the end of the night, I told A. that I was relieved that the 'telling part' was over for now we don't have to talk about it. I don't allow myself to think about these things as I still feel that if I get too comfortable the other shoe will drop. He got that.
In other news, I think our transfer date is set for March! This gives me time to get my ducks in a row and get my head around all the implications. A. and I are still not 100% convinced of what to do, but we whatever happens, we will make the decision together and be on the same page.