Friday, October 15, 2010

Beta Day...No Way!

Today should be my beta day. No, the fact the Tren.tal is working BIG time to help my AF, seriously working if you get the idea, does not mean that I have forgotten this fact. Its on my mind constantly.

Tomorrow, I'm another year older. I hate my birthday, it is a slap in the face that my failing body is getting older. I thought 30 was the absolute fucking worst year of my life, but 31 is not starting out so well.

Sunday is A.'s sister's wedding. It is going to be lovely, but I can't help but play my MIL's words over and over again in my head about how they plan to get to pregnant on the honeymoon. I really don't think I will be able to take that. It might just push me over the edge (not literally).

I go for my first check on Thursday and then we will see where I'm at lining wise. I just need to breathe right now.

-R.

15 comments:

  1. Sorry that you're feeling so bad.
    And fertile relatives are always hard to handle.
    Thinking of you.

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  2. I hate dates and reminders, they always suck. Thinking of you.

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  3. Hey R,

    Although I am so sorry today would have been beta day, I am REALLY happy to hear that the trental is working based on AF's flow. I think that's a really positive thing. And Happy Birthday fellow 1979er!!! I hope you are able to do something special. And Thursday u/s huh? Same day as me. Take care.

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  4. Happy birthday, even though it might not be as happy to you. Glad to hear AF is flowing well, that has to be good, right? Hang in there, and I hope your bday wishes come true.

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  5. its my intended transfer day too. BOO.
    oh, and it's T's birthday, i had no idea you two were right next to each other in bdays :)
    hope yours is amazing.

    xoxo
    lis

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  6. They plan to get pregnant on the honeymoon? Well, I plan to get pregnant a year ago. As you know all too well, sometimes it takes a little more than a plan. So your MIL can say whatever she wants; no one knows what the future will hold. Hope you can find a little sunshine on your birthday tomorrow. Do something kind for yourself. Hugs.

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  7. Happy (early) birthday! I hope 31 brings you everything your heart desires, especially the 'big one'!

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  8. Hoping 31 is the best year yet.

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  9. Happy Birthday to you even though you don't think it is great. I don't even remember what I did when I turned that age. Hope the wedding is nice and the food is great. Seriously, I think someone should have a talk with your MIL about proper etiquette.

    T

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  10. You are in my thoughts R. I totally get the challenge of celebrating another birthday. It's another milestone passed where it feels we've stood still. I hope and pray that this is IT for you and that 31 is a great year. I hope that the wedding is uneventful and you are able to enjoy the event. Big hugs to you....

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  11. Thanks for your comment. Do you get a triple stripe? I don't - and I don't know what to fall back on at this point. Is the trental for lining, too?

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  12. wishing you a very quiet *happy birthday* and hoping that it and your coming year are better than expected.

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  13. Thinking of you today. I get what you mean about being pushed over the edge if your SIL does get lucky. That's how I feel about my other SIL, the non-pregnant one. Glad the trental is working well.

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  14. R., I'm sorry that your birthday isn't a happier occasion. I hope that this year the breaks finally start going your way & that 31 is the happiest year of your life.

    T.

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  15. Happy birthday dear R.

    You know you cannot listed to any MIL spew. They are oh so very foolish, my love. They want to get pregnant like poor people. How retro.

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