Sunday, October 31, 2010

Feeling Better

Something is helping to take the itch and soreness away form down there. Maybe I am now acclimatized to the medication? Maybe it was the ice pack that I shoved on my crotch last night? Maybe it was the fact that for most of the day, I was in a bathrobe with no underwear to air out the region? Maybe it was the fact that part of the antihistamine protocol started today and the Claritin is helping this? Whatever the reason, I don't really care. It is still not perfect, but I can live with this.

I'm starting to become overwhelmed with the amount of work that remains unfinished. We are going for dinner to A.'s parents' house tonight and I have been working for hours. I wish I could close my eyes, click my feet together three times and poof, my work would be finished. Oh well. I guess will just have to bring it with me.

Tomorrow is going to be crazy. I have an early meeting with a parent, a two hour workshop in the middle of the day, and I need to find time to photocopy the lessons for when I'm away. Couple that with my last ever acupuncture for infertility session and another lymphatic massage and you have one busy R. And to tell you the truth, I don't care. I am finally transferring with a decent lining and I would leave all the other shit behind for this one real chance at success. Yes, the back-up plan is good, but now I feel like I might actually have a shot. I was too stunned and surprised last week to ask what my stats are with this transfer. I know that last time, he gave me a 65%. I am so hoping for at least a 70%, but it is what it is. I am not going to stress over this. I feel good about my little lining that could, and I am hopeful that all the protocol changes will lead me to a live baby in nine months.


A. and I do not celebrate Halloween. I used to back when I was in university and I always had some random costume with a group of friends (3 out of 4 dentists choose Colegate, the characters from Mario Boys - I was the one up, an identity crisis, a road...); but since we were married, we really haven't even acknowledged the day at all. I think it's for the best as I can only imagine how difficult the reminders must be with having trick-or-treators knocking on the door all evening. To those who continue to struggle with IF and give out candy, wow. Good for you. I don't think I would be able to do it.


  1. Hi. Just want to say hello and good luck. I've been lurking for months now, checking in with all you girls as if you're my group of friends. I was so happy to hear about your great lining. I'll continue sending you my positive energy from SF. So cool that you get to spend time with LisainSK.

    I have my first phone consultation with CCRM this Tuesday. So far I had two failed IUIs and one failed IVF here in SF. I'm 41+ we have MF so we decided to go to CCRM without wasting more time.

  2. Hey R...hope you can get through tomorrow in one piece!! So hoping you'll be done with EVERYTHING after hopeful!

  3. I'm so excited for your 7mm lining! Such great news! And you even get to stay where you want in Denver. Love it.

    Can't wait to keep reading!


  4. R, we are glad your hooha is back in order. Cracking me up for some reason. Heaven help you should the trick or treaters show up early!

    Steady as she goes the next days. You were born ready for this week. No sweat.

  5. R., good luck getting everything wrapped up. You're clearly a very devoted teacher. Your students are very lucky to have you. Have a safe trip to Denver. I am praying for you. No one deserves a break more than you do and believe me, I've let the universe know that!


  6. Glad you're feeling better!
    Don't worry about specific odds, just know that you have done EVERYTHING and you are going into this with the best personal odds you've ever had! So excited for you!

  7. Happy to hear your hooha is feeling better! Wishing you all kinds of good luck while you're in Denver!! Sounds like things are lining up really well for this round....

  8. So excited for you this cycle. Sorry about the icky Endom.etrin side effects. At least it's doing it's job!!

  9. Hey R,

    You know I am rooting for you and was so relieved when you got a spot at the hotel. Still, wish I was there with you both at the same time. It's funny how people seem to not understand how we pick ourselves up and keep going with a plan B on the burner, but this is what we have to do. We will not be defeated. By the way, we went with my plan A as both those embryos thawed without a hitch. Just wish my E was stronger as I am now on 4 patches and three pills a day!

    As for the anonymous SF commenter, I get it. SF sucks for fertility and they all have superiority complexes and are not thorough. IUI's need constant blood work to determine the right time and not just an ultrasound. However, most places won't do it unless you demand it. I learned that from a great doctor in Northern Virginia. Her name was Dr. A----i. She helped me get pregnant. Unfortunately, there were fatal fetal problems. Don't waste your time in SF.

    By the way, I passed out the candy and it doesn't bother me at all. So many kids come that I don't even have time to think about it. Plus, it is good to see them happy and hear them say thank you. And if you have any left over, it is yours to enjoy.


  10. I'm glad you are feeling better! Best of luck with finishing up all the loose ends. It really seems like all the stars are aligning for you this time, and I'm excited for you! : )

  11. Thinking of you today and hoping that your plan for today is progressing as you'd wanted. Wish you all the best! I am sooo rooting for you!

  12. This is going to sound really weird but I always loved Halloween even during our 4+ years of IF. The winter holidays were hard but somehow Halloween was different. I would always sit out front and drink wine while I handed out candy and then head to an adult costume party. To me, it was always just the right mix of fun for everyone!