Monday, October 25, 2010

Relieved

I was on pins and needles all day waiting to hear back from NN regarding the next steps for the GC. Things have been moving at warp speed and although I am excited to finally have some hope again, I couldn't help, but realize that things were getting out of control.

Luckily, the decision was taken away from me. NN said that the first step is to get the medical records approved. As well, we can only schedule the ODWU testing once I am 100% committed to the process. I sort of understand this, but am a bit bummed. GC told me that she won't be ready to go back until the first week of December. That just seems like an eternity from now. On the other hand, I am glad that my focus can be on myself for the moment. I need to send all the positive energy I have into my lining so that on Thursday it is showing at least a 5mm.

I was watching Brothers and Sisters and they used a term that so applies to me, womb envy. Yup, I have that and that is why I am going to focus my energy for the next few days on my lining and not on the GC.

-R.

9 comments:

  1. Still very hopeful R...take care!

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  2. Plan C is lined up just in case, but I still have hope for Plan B, R. C'mon lining!!

    T.

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  3. Yes, I am hoping for you too. I will be at our place on that day and I won't have my computer with me since it is such a short trip. Hope to see you there!

    T

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  4. It's probably good to have a bit of time in between trying to get your lining to cooperate and starting the process with the GC. You will need that time either way.
    Take good care of yourself.

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  5. Womb envy, yes, that's a good term for a bunch of us, eh? The Womb Envy Sisters?
    Hoping for a good lining report for you!

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  6. i LOVE that you are using words like hopeful and relieved. im glad that some lightness has seeped in, even though the whole situation is still so bittersweet.
    thinking of you
    xoxo
    lis

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  7. Sending you lots of positive thoughts for your lining. Grow, baby, grow!

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  8. Sending you tons of grow lining vibes!!

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  9. Womb Envy... I think that might be my new favorite phrase! Feeling that here right now. So glad that you are able to step back and focus on YOU right now. Also so happy to know that you have this plan in place should you need it. Thinking of you.

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