Wednesday, November 10, 2010

7dp5dt

I slept well last night; probably I had exhausted myself from the early morning fanatical crying and cleaning session followed by an insainely long day at work. When it was finally time to wake up, I checked again...still just the one line. I will admit that somewhere very far in the back of my head, I thought that maybe my second line would show up just like so many of you. Kicked in the teeth again. I am probably not going to test again, it just upsets me. I am way to fragile and need to keep my shit together at work. It is all I can do not to start crying at every drop of the hat, I have managed to sneak a few tears here and there, but I leave the sobbing for my car.

In other news, my GC finally got all her medical records and they are going express post to CCR.M first thing Friday morning (tomorrow is Rememberance Day and the post office is closed). So at least that is something in the right direction.

Again, thanks for your sympathies, prayers and friendship I shudder to think how broken I would be without all of you.

-R.
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17 comments:

  1. Auntie EmNovember 10, 2010 at 7:04 PM

    I so wish you would have seen two lines... thinking of you.

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  2. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 7:07 PM

    Just not fair...not at all.

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  3. JessicaNovember 10, 2010 at 7:44 PM

    I'm so sorry to hear this:( Thinking of you.

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  4. Mel.November 10, 2010 at 7:58 PM

    I'm sorry, sweets, I so wished for a better outcome for you. You're in my thoughts!

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  5. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 8:18 PM

    I am glad we are all here to comfort you and will continue to do so when you need us.

    Hugs,

    T

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  6. mrs. hopeNovember 10, 2010 at 8:42 PM

    Wish there was a word that would change it all. Lots of magical thinking today. Hoping the next plan is the answer plan for you.

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  7. RoccieNovember 10, 2010 at 8:43 PM

    I have been with you all day today.

    Every single minute.

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  8. LindsayNovember 10, 2010 at 10:22 PM

    So sorry. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  9. a in sfNovember 10, 2010 at 11:46 PM

    I was hoping the second line would eventually appear. I'm sorry. I hate when life is not fair.

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  10. bibcNovember 11, 2010 at 12:28 AM

    i just am flattened by this news. im sorry i didn't get to you sooner. this is just not how i expected things to turn out, and im sorry you cant have everything you want. i wish that and more for you.
    hugs
    lis

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  11. TheThirtiesGirlNovember 11, 2010 at 2:17 AM

    I'm so, so sorry. Keeping you in my thoughts.

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  12. cdgNovember 11, 2010 at 7:35 AM

    Continuing to think of you..... I am so saddened by your news.

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  13. AnonymousNovember 11, 2010 at 9:28 AM

    thinking of you today ((xo))

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  14. AnonymousNovember 11, 2010 at 10:50 AM

    ((HUGS)) R... you are in my thoughts. I am so sorry!

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  15. lastchanceivfNovember 11, 2010 at 11:06 AM

    I'm just really really sorry.

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  16. PieNovember 11, 2010 at 11:22 AM

    Damn. I'm sorry.

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  17. rebeccaNovember 11, 2010 at 8:07 PM

    Ugh, I'm so, so sorry. Life is so painful unfair at times ((hugs))

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