Monday, January 11, 2010

Everything Happens for a Reason

Whoever came up with this expression clearly never had any problems. Why do people think that by saying these magical five words that you will suddenly feel better about your situation?

I spoke to my nurse today about what had happened. She could offer no insight, however she did alleviate some of my fears. She assured me that Ms. Perfect was only too excited to donate for us and she promised that we would indeed receive her eggs. Phew. One worry on my list that I can now cross off.

I have many other worries related to this process. The biggest one is of course, what happens if this fails. I know that sounds awfully pessimistic, but when all you know is failure, it is difficult to positive all the time. A. tries to keep me positive. He is very supportive and optimistic that it will all work out, but I need some convincing. I try to think positively. I try to think about the reason that this is happening to us, but honestly that is where I am struggling. People tell me that God gives you what you can handle, but I don't want to handle this anymore. I want to be normal. I want to be pregnant. I want to be a mother.

What possible reason could there be for this to happen?


1 comment:

  1. I HATE that phrase. One of my uber fertile friends said it to me while she was holding her newborn and we were talking about my IF. I asked her if her child were to die that night of SIDS if she would think there were a reason for that. She looked at me horrified. I said "EXACTLY!" Not everything happens for reason - sometimes it's just plain old shitty luck!