Remember that cool and calm R from a few posts ago? She has left the building and little miss frustrated has replaced her. I am seriously quite stressed at the moment and the additional estrogen pumping throughout my body is not helping the situation. I feel like crying or screaming or both. I am just plain fed up.
I have been replaying my conversation with NN in my head all day. I really just don't get what a regroup will do. Back in May, I had a 45 minute conversation with the dr about my thin lining and his take on the situation. He told me in plain English that he thinks this is the best I am going to get and to transfer and hope for the best. He and the head sonographer explained that there are two components to a lining the thickness and the pattern. Ideally, you want to have it above 8 and a triple stripe, but they both believe that the pattern is more important the thickness. Ok, I have the pattern, score one for R. I am not looking for a miracle in regards to my lining, I am realistic and I am happy with my 6.6. I have emailed NN to get her take on the situation....again.
Here is what I wrote her:
Would it be possible to show Dr Schoolcraft my latest results on Monday when he is back to get his thoughts on if I can transfer or not? It is not that I don't want to regroup with him, or don't trust your judgement, it is just that I had a long conversation with him in May about my lining and the pros and cons of transferring with a 6.5 and he (and I) was confident that that was the best I was going to get so I am not sure what is different this time around.
Also, I have started teaching at a new school this year and I need to inform them of my absence by Tuesday as we are closed for the rest of the week and then I would be leaving. As well, my sister in law is getting married and I have a commitment that I need to be home for and the flights are filling up as it is a long weekend in Canada. So as you can see, I have a lot of things on my mind and the high dose of Estrace is not helping my mood these days :).
Of course, I want to do whatever you and the dr feel will be best, but I am happy with my lining and would like to proceed with the transfer as scheduled. I would cancel if I thought that trying a different protocol would yield better results, but I know this to be untrue from my past attempts.
I am happy to keep my regroup appointment for Thursday if you think that there is new information that I need to consider, but again, I am happy with my 6.6 (and hopefully a bit higher by Friday when I would start the Endometrium).
Please let me know what you think about this plan.
I am just so fucking sick of all this waiting around and regrouping. I just need to get this transfer over with so I can move on one way or another. (Hopefully pregnant, but if not I will start actively looking for a GC.)
Thanks for listening to my vent. I will try and get back to my happy place once this issue is resolved.