First of off, I just want to say thank you to all who offered support to me. It means so much to know that I am not the only one who experiences these feelings. Yes, I have read, "Having Your Baby Through Egg Donation" and I will surely look up the other book recommended. And yes, I am ready for this step, I was just having one (probably of many) freak outs that is bound to happen, hopefully my next freak out will be related to my pregnancy and will be similar to that of what all new mothers feel.
Tonight was a magical night. A. and I went to a charity dinner in honour of ovarian cancer, "Yes We Can". The way we came to this dinner was because of my father. He organized the dinner along with his running group in honour of one of their members. My father has been involved in a local running group for years. They meet every weekend and go running, run marathons together and also participate in relay race running. They are an amazing group of people and have also started adding charity to their resume.
One of the group members was diagnosed with cancer. He is now in remission, but has not let this stop him. While he was fighting his battle with cancer, his wife was diagnosed with recurring ovarian cancer. This was seven years ago. Since then, she has gone through two surgeries and endless rounds of chemotherapy all the while, keeping a smile on her face and hope in her heart. She is an inspiration. The husband, after surviving cancer, realized that he wanted to do something for cancer research so he decided that he was going to run one marathon a month and have his 60th marathon on his 60th birthday month--this July. The dinner was a tribute to the couple and a way to raise money and awareness as well.
It was truly an inspirational evening, and definitely put my earlier freak out into some perspective.