Monday, August 9, 2010

Could This Day Get Any Worse?

Please don't answer that.

I had an eloquent post written in my head about how at exactly 4pm EST or 2pm MT, both me and my sister would be having ultrasounds. Hers found a healthy, growing on target baby girl while mine found a blood clot leftover from the miscarriage.

I am done.

I decided against having a D&C in Denver as I just want to be home. If god forbid something goes wrong, I want to be in Canada where my family is. I don't know if this is the right decision or not, but it is a done deal. Tomorrow I will call my local clinic and have them arrange for me to get the D&C done as soon as possible.

There is more to say about the appointment and the other stuff, but I just don't have it in me right now.

-R.

18 comments:

  1. Oh no.. I was praying that you would get some good news for once. I am so hoping this is the last set back for you though I am sure with everything you've been through it's hard to imagine. I know the news (both pieces) is upsetting for you but it sounds like you will be moving quickly to see a local doctor and hopefully that will clear the way for another cycle. Hang in there :( ...tbb1

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  2. Oh, my sweet R. I'm so, so sorry you have to deal with this. I think you're right to do the D&C where you can be near your loved ones. There is no other "right decision" than what is going to make you feel taken care of. (((Hugs)))

    How do you feel about chocolate chip cookies?

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  3. I so wish there was something I could do to make it all better! I think the decision you made was just right. Hugs and love to you!

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  4. Oh no R, I'm so sorry! I think you are making the right decision to do the D&C at home.
    I'm around if you want to talk about your day.

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  5. Hey R...not.cool.at.all! This sucks big time. Ugg...when's it YOUR TURN to get a break?!! Sorry...I'm not helping. Sorry. (I wish I could quit saying that for you.)

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  6. crap

    what a pain in the ass. here's hoping that the D&C clears that shit out! and soon.

    tell me you won't have to go back to denver before starting again?

    not fair, my love. NOT AT ALL. and a girl? insult to injury. i know you will love your niece, but seriously? the timing SUCKS

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  7. No no no no no, oh R., I cannot believe this has happened. I've been thinking about you all day & my heart just dropped when I saw the title of your post. I'm sorry seems totally inadequate. I wish there was something more I could do. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on or somebody to vent to, I'm here.

    {{{{{hugs}}}}},
    T.
    T.

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  8. I am so very sorry. I wish I could give you a huge hug in person. Just once I wish you would get the break, girlfriend! Thinking of you.

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  9. I'm so sorry to hear about the blood clot, R. And sorry to read how defeated you sound right now.
    Such a wise decision to come back to Canada for the D&C.
    You are in my thoughts as you make your way back North of the 45th parallel.
    warm hugs,
    A

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  10. LOL it's the 49th parallel. I am really surprised you didn't get an u/s before going to Denver as that would have shown the issue, no? Try to be happy for your sister - like prev commented said, at least she us not having to go through IF and I wouldn't wish it on anyone, ESPECIALLY my sister.

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  11. ST, I did get an ultrasound that showed that all the tissue had passed. DUH. Of course I am happy for my sister that she doesn't have IF, so please in the future...comment on someone else's blog.

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  12. Oh damn. That really sucks, R, and I'm so sorry this isn't easy for once.

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  13. So sorry R. This was totally unexpected which is a difficult thing, especially for people like us that are planners and think we are prepared. I never heard of such a thing, so I would not have been prepared either. I hope your clinic takes you really soon as it would be horrible to let this fester. Just wondering if Dr. S. will have you start Lovanox or Heparin. This medicine can help people with clotting problems and miscarriages.

    Oh, and since I don't have a blog - a person posted this article about ICSI and thought I should share the article. Very interesting.

    http://www.boston.com/community/moms/articles/2010/08/08/the_infertility_dilemma/?camp=misc%3Aon%3Ashare%3Aarticle

    Hugs to you!

    T

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  14. I am so so sorry. Lots of good thoughts for you. Safe travels and big hugs...

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  15. um, ST, i don't think R was saying that she wishes IF on anyone. she was simply expressing her feelings about her day. her horrible, shitty day on top of a horrible shitty drawn out miscarriage. i wouldn't wish the pain of that on anyone and i wish if you weren't here to support that you just would read and move on. really, your comment served to do nothing more to make R feel worse. let's remember that if you don't have anything comforting to say, stay out of the conversation!!

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