I'm in an award stage right now, trying not to obsess over every little detail about the cycle, while at the same time, obsessing that the cycle is upon me. I think I must check my calendar at least fives times a day making sure the dates are right and counting how long until retrieval, transfer and even beta day! I know, I need a life.
Right now, I cannot focus on any other element of life. This cycle is consuming my every thought. I spend many hours on the chat boards and reading the blogs of other inspiring women who are fighting the same battle as me. I have learned so much valuable information and life lessons from these women and am so thankful for this one and only aspect of infertility...meeting these women.
I guess the point, I'm not so eloquently making is that even though I am trying not be, I'm obsessed with infertility. Its not healthy, but I can't help it.