Ultrasound today confirmed what we already knew. Not. A. Viable. Pregnancy. I haven't cried and I don't think I will. I knew this was coming so I wasn't surprised. I'm sure it also helped that at 5 am this morning I was woken up to intense stomach cramping and some spotting. The pain was pretty intense for an hour, but thankfully after two extra strength Ty.lenols and some rest, I'm feeling better (physically at least).
I won't lie, making the call to A. was difficult, but he took it well. I am really proud of him for how he has handled our latest devastating news, I think he would be proud of me too.
As usual, I'm still waiting for the nurse to call to discuss my plan. I want this miscarriage to happen ASAP. I need it be over soon because, I think I convinced A. that we are in desperate need for a vacation! He is checking with work today to see if can take the time off. Fingers crossed.
-R.
Ugh........... so sorry to hear this. A vacation certainly sounds like it is in order. Hoping that the resolution is as pain-free (emotionally and physically) as possible. You are a much stronger woman than I.
ReplyDeleteI must tell you that you are handling all of this very well. I know how hard this is. Let the tears fall if they need to, you've been through hell!
ReplyDeleteI hope you are able to take some time away for you and your hubby. Some alone time may be just what you need.
Hang in there and know I'm thinking of you.
I too am impressed with the way you are handling this. Getting off the meds will stop things very quickly and the fact that you are already bleeding will help. You both were prepared, and that is much better.
ReplyDeleteGo have some sushi, eat some chocolate, and take that vacation. You both deserve it!
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R. I am so sorry. I was holding out hope for this pregnancy. I'm glad you were able to get a clear answer at least so that you can grieve and heal. A vacation sounds like a great idea if the two of you can swing it!
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R, I'm sorry. I hope you are able to take a vacation; I'm sure you would benefit from it.
ReplyDeleteI am truly sorry R. I hope that it is all over quickly and I can't recommend the vacation enough! Some place where you can just relax and pamper yourself, enjoy some adult beverages and some time away from it all. I'm also really glad that you were able to stop working at your old job - you didn't need that added stress right now. I hope you get the good official news from your dream job soon!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry. I hope you get the closure and quickness you need, along with a vacation to replenish you both.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. I am glad that you finally know for sure. I hope that things move along naturally and that you are on your way to healing soon. I highly recommend a vacation. It was the best decision DH & I made after things didn't work out for us in February. It was hard to stomach the $, but in the end it was the best use of that money!
ReplyDeleteI am thinking of you today!
I am so sorry. I was really hoping that things would turn out differently for you. I know you want this over with ASAP so that the healing can begin. If you want a push in that direction, I think an acupuncturist can help you speed things along. Mary Wong at Alive Holistic Health is really good and she is located downtown at College and Yonge. Again, I'm so sorry.
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