No not the bleeding, but the reality of what has happened. I woke up feeling empty today. Again, I was able to sleep through the night and this was the first time in months that I didn't have the alarm go off to remind to take some pills. That was nice, I guess.
I would be exactly 7 weeks today and wouldn't you know, my body still thinks its pregnant. Full blown nausea this morning. No, I didn't throw up, but I did dry heave many times. FML.
I went to see my acupuncturist this morning. She treated me to a session to help bring on the miscarriage naturally. I so hope it works. This is where the emotions came out. I have no clue what triggered me, but all of a sudden, I couldn't hold it in and the tears just came out and rolled down my face. I was still tearing when I left the office an hour later. I guess this is to be expected, the spontaneous crying and I should just bring tissues with me when I go places.
I just hope the bleeding starts on its own and is over quickly, the anticipation is torture. I just want to move on.
One exciting thing that is happening today is that my cousin asked me to accompany her to her dress fitting. I love everything weddings and so I am so happy to share this moment with her. I suspect I will need the tissues for this as well.