Monday, June 21, 2010

Scared

It's 1:15 and my appointment is at 2:00. I have been literally staring at the clock all day. I am too scared to move. On the one hand, I need to know and put this behind me, but on the other, right now I am pregnant and I don't if I will ever be able to say that again. I am quivering with fear and sadness. I know I need to pull myself together and go, but I am paralyzed at the moment.

Thank you for your thoughts on the medical vs natural miscarriage, I know that it is not easy to bring up those memories.

-R.

5 comments:

  1. Thinking of you... I am also very nervous today as I will be speaking with the doc soon trying to work something out. Stress is a natural laxative for me and my bowels are going nuts!

    T

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  2. R, good luck this afternoon. I am hoping, against the odds, for good news and will be checking back later today.

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  3. It's worth bringing up the memories if it helps you in some way. Still hoping to hear good news this afternoon though....

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  4. I'm thinking of you as well. I just got back from my sonohystogram and as I was lying there waiting for the doctor to come in, staring at the empty ultrasound screen, I was thinking of you and trying to visualize something good on that screen for you. No matter what happens, you will get through it. I know it feels like you won't make it, but you will. We are all here for you.

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