Monday, June 21, 2010

Over

Just got off the phone with the nurse. She thinks its over. I think its over. A.'s not so sure. So we are going to get rechecked on Wednesday just for fun. (haha). This just sucks. I'm going to keep up with the hormones just on the off chance that we are in that 0.000000000000001% chance that something could actually go my way.

I'm now deciding between the natural and medicated miscarriage. So scared of that pill so maybe leaning towards the natural.

I'm just shocked. It hasn't hit me.

-R.

12 comments:

  1. So sorry. What way does the nurse suggest? The progesterone is keeping the pregnancy going and if you stop it, you will get rid of it more quickly. I keep checking your post so many times per day. Thinking of you...

    T

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  2. I hurt for you, R. I'm so sorry.

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  3. I am crying for you R. I am truly heartbroken. You deserved this so much. I hope you can find your way out of it and tap into your inner strength to move on. I know it is hard to see the larger picture right now, but you do have more beautiful embies waiting for a home. I am so sorry.

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  4. My heart hurts for you R. It just doesn't seem fair.
    I had a D&C w/ my m/c but I didn't have a choice because we have the RH factor ~ they didn't want me to start bleeding. While I know the mexo-whatever-they-call-it is hard to wrap your brain around, that is probably what I would do. I've heard of women trying to exercise, do anything they could to make their bodies miscarry, but it didn't seem to work. I just hate to think of you in this situation. Even if you take the drug you will still have to go in for HcG testing afterwards and you'll have to wait until your numbers are less than 5 before it's truly over. I hate even telling you all this b/c I know it's hard, but I had to Google everything. Sometimes I think it's easier to hear it from someone who's been there.
    Please know I'm hoping you get the answers you are searching for soon and pray you find peace.

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  5. I am so very sorry R. My heart breaks for you & I hope you have some definitive answers on Wednesday. I hate that you are having to deal with this after all you've been through. Big hugs to you.

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  6. R,

    There are no words for my deep heartfelt sympathies for you. What you have just gone through is a nightmare. But please know that you are not alone. Thinking of you day and night. Hoping for peace in your heart very soon. Just unbelievable. Why. Sorry...just so so sorry.

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  7. I'm so sorry. Sending you big hugs.

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  8. Damn. Damn, damn, damn. I am so sorry R.

    ((((((hugs)))))))

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  9. I'm so sorry. Sending you a (((((HUG))))).

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  10. Ugh... I really hope that A comes out to be correct in all of this. I am so very sorry.

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