First, I emailed my CCRM nurse this morning to keep her updated on the bleeding situation and my beta results. Although she did say my number was strong, she also said that we need it to continue doubling. I don't know, but something about the tone (and it is so hard to infer tone in an email) has me a bit freaked. Almost, like she thinks there is a chance that it won't double. I'm not going to worry about that. I'm going to be positive.
I came out at work today. No, not about being pregnant (I'm very supersticious), about being IF. It actually felt really good. It was never really secret, but I don't walk around with a large sign with flashing lights either. On Friday, I was proctoring an exam with a collegue. He and his partner are starting to think about family planning and how expensive it is (tell me about it). He made a remark about me giving him one of mine, to which I replied, sorry I can't.
This got us started on the conversation of IF. Seeing as he is contemplating adoption and surrogacy, he immediately asked about surrogates. I replied that wasn't my problem and the conversation was dropped. Today, it was brought up again, only with two more people. The four of us were sitting around the staffroom table marking and again, this collegue was discussing the 100K price tag associated with family planning. I needed him to know that I thought his quote was a bit on the high side.
I explained to him the cost of IUI, IVF and DE IVF in both Canada and the US and when the others around the table asked how I knew so much, I replied, this is my reality. No one said anything, I thought that was a bit odd, but ok.
When the others left, he continued to ask questions. Not in a prying way, but in a wanting information way. This was the first time I admitted to using DE to a real life person. It felt weird and oddly normal. I wasn't embarrassed (not that I thought I would be) or upset or anything. It is what it is.
He asked questions about how to choose, where to go and other things. I answered as best I could.
At the end of the conversation, I think he felt a bit better and I felt great that I was able to help someone who I know in real life. It was cool. (I did lie about where we were in the process though).
Symtoms: is it possible they are dissappearing?
ETA: David Hasseloff is on Young and the Restless today. LOL! Talk about a blast from the past.