I had a good night sleep last night. It was uninterrupted once my eyes finally closed. I woke this morning and for a brief moment, I forgot. The emptiness and the pain are more intense now as well as my tears. The come streaming down my face with such intensity and I can't find a way to slow them down. My wonderful symptoms of nausea and such have faded away and I have been having brown discharge/spotting all day (Dr. Google tells me this is a sign of a blighted ovum). Soon I will have nothing left to remind me that for a brief time, I was pregnant.
I am no longer numb. I am devastated. I am hurt. I am profoundly sad and I am angry.