Friday, June 25, 2010

Scared

The bleeding stopped, so I need the pills. I spoke to an OB that is friends with my father and he said that it is pretty likely I won't be in exrusiating pain. I really really hope so. I am scared shitless about this, but need this to be over. I also need some control over the situation. I can't go about my daily life wondering when massive bleeding is going to start. This is the best of the worst for me.

If I don't write tomorrow, you will know why. I so hope that is not the case. I really really hope it is not bad. Can you tell how scared I am?

Thanks for all the support you have shown me through emails and comments, it has really helped.

-R.

8 comments:

  1. Sending you big hugs! I will be thinking of you. :)

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  2. I'm so sorry this is so hard. I'm hoping the physical part won't be too bad. Can you ask the OB for a small script for pain meds in case you need them? might make it less scary, and you deserve that, even a little bit. thinking of you.

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  3. I really hope the physical part isn't too hard on you. I'll be thinking of you too....

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  4. im so sorry, R. i wish i could do or say something. i hope this weekend isn't too physically painful. let yourself grieve and know that there are better days ahead. xoxo

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  5. Ugh. I am so, so sorry. For what it's worth, I've known other women to take the pills and although it's not fun, it's doable. Just like a realllllly bad period. I agree with the pp- maybe you can get a pain med as well? Hell, take it even if you don't need it for physical pain.

    I'm really really happy the job came through. I'm also in special education and your job sounds amazing, I'd LOVE to have it. I hope you talk about it more here. And, I work in a bridal salon so I am around wedding crap all day- you'd love it!

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  6. I'm sorry. Praying that all goes smoothly and painlessly. This is all so unfair:(

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  7. You're stronger than you think you are and you will get through this as well. Make sure that you do whatever you need to do to get through this as well. Thinking about you...

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  8. The pills didn't give me unbearable pain so I hope they don't for you too. I took strong painkillers at night to sleep, but only as a precaution.
    Thinking of you.. ♥

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