I think I asked/told A. (and myself) this a thousand times today. I need reassurance. I need to feel optimistic. I need to feel like I have a fighting chance.
So many people use donor eggs and have success. The odds are in our favour for once. Why can't I just relax and believe?
It all goes back to the last three years. We were told by many drs that IF treatments would work for us. We were told, that I would take Clomid and get pregnant. No one expected me (at 28) to need injectables or IUI or IVF and at 30 no one thought I would need donor eggs, but still...here I am. So yeah, it is hard for me to believe that this time, I have a fighting chance, when on paper the other times should have worked.
This cycle has to work. If it doesn't I am not sure that I will be able to recover.