Saturday, May 15, 2010

Things are Looking Up

I decided this morning (at 6am when I got up to insert my first dose of meds for the day) that I was going to be more positive. I am not going to obsess over the details that are out of my control. My lining is going to thicken or not, whether I'm optimistic or pessimistic, so I'm going to try and relax. Now that my nurse has told me that as long as I don't compact (which she doesn't expect to happen) I will get to transfer, I'm in a much better place.

I'll prove it. This morning my mom told me one of my cousins is pregnant (4th announcement this week, but whose counting?). I managed to say a quick "that's nice" and then continued on with our conversation. I'm upset, but I didn't cry. I didn't feel anything really. This cousin is two years younger and she has now lapped me. Oh well. At the end of the day, we are not extrememly close so I'm not going to let it get me down.

I am already feeling the rewards of my new attitude. I have been shoe shopping for months trying to find a pair to wear to my cousin's wedding. The requirements are nude and in my size (5). Having small feet is a curse. It is almost impossible to find specific shoes. Today, I stumbled upon a store that I never frequent, they had the colour, the exact style I wanted and best of all, my size. They are not the most comfortable, but the price was right and after the isle, I will put on some cute flats.

Hopefully this will be a trend of good things to come.



  1. I completely adore those shoes! I'm a high heels girl myself...because I'm short I like to give myself height any way I can :) But my feet are size 6.5 which is very manageable--my Mom's are size 5-5.5 and she has trouble. However, Target seems to have a lot of tiny sizes--weird eh?

    At any rate, sorry for the fourth announcement, but YOURS WILL BE NEXT! I feel it!

  2. Cute! Gosh what is with all the prego announcements! Keep being strong!!

  3. I think that you have just the right attitude. You have done all you can do and now it's just a waiting game. And shoe shopping always helps! Those shoes are adorable, but my feet hurt just looking at them. I have become such a little ol' lady with my shoes. I have to have comfy ones, even though I'm short and could use the extra height.

  4. Oh my R... sorry I missed a bunch of your previous posts. You are going though a lot. ((HUGS)) I am glad that your lining has thickened and am crossing my fingers that it continues the trend.
    Good job on the attitude. I need a dose of that! And cute shoes by the way! :)

  5. I hope the rewards for your positive attitude keep rolling in!! :)

  6. LOVE the shoes! There is just something magical about finding the right shoes that makes everything ok, even for just a moment.

    You have a great attitude, keep it up girl! :)

    Have a wonderful Sunday!

  7. Glad you're in a better place. And it's important to reward yourself for all the hard work and those pumps are nice! Hope you'll be wearing them to go out and celebrate soon.