WTF???

Today was literally the most stressful, emotional and fucked day of my life. When I left my doctor’s office this morning after the ultrasound, I was uncontrollable. Screaming, crying, basically hysterical. I couldn’t speak clearly, I honestly don’t know how I drove home. My father (who is a GP) was in the area of the clinic and went in to speak with the doctor.

What I gather from that conversation is that when there is fluid in your uterus, it is usually a sign that your lining is compacting. Based on yesterday’s ultrasound report, she would have cancelled me right then and there.

Once I heard this, I immediately realized I had no chance. I emailed my nurse and said that I know I am cancelled, but I want to the dr before the weekend.

4.5 very long and sad hours passed.

I then got an email from the nurse.
“R. I spoke with the dr and he reviewed your ultrasound. He can not tell you 100% for sure what your lining is measuring, but he can tell you it is better than what your clininc there is telling you”. WHAT?

1.5 very long, confused and anxious hours passed.

I fianally got hold of the nurse. The doctor and head ultrasonographer both agree that there is NO fluid in my lining (according to the scans I emailed). So, as of now, my lining is measuring between 7.8 mm – 8 mm. WHAT? I also asked her about the significance of fluid and was told that fluid in the uterus is not usally problematic and when you take progesterone, it flushes it out.

I am going to Denver tomorrow morning and have an ultrasound scheduled for 11:30am. As of now, I am still on track for a transfer (earliest would be Monday). At this point, I am very skeptical and not sure who I believe or what is happening. I also have an appointment with the doctor on Thursday morning, but am hoping to speak with him tomorrow instead.

That’s my story for day, it is pretty unbelievable and I am still in shock. I just don’t know what/who to believe. This was an exhausting day.

-R.