The Outcome

I was really nervous going into today's regroup with the doctor. I didn't know what to expect and I really hoped he had some answers for me.

He told me that I do indeed have lining issues. He said that he has now seen me in three different cycles on three different med protocols and my results have been similar (give or take 0.5 mm), and because of this, he feels that this is the best I can do. He went on to tell me that the standard is 8 mm, but he does transfer over 6 mm. He thinks I will have a 15% decline in success from what he originally quoted me. So about 65%.

I asked about using a different protocol, and he told me that I am on the "big gun" protocol and it is the right one for me. Since my body doesn't produce enough Estrogen, a natural FET is not an option. Also adding stim meds or other forms of estrogen would not work. I also asked if I should repeat my hysteroscopy or have other tests run. He said that it wasn't necessary. I had to ask. I then brought up the idea of an endometrial biopsy. He told me that to date, it is not used for people in my situation with thin linings, but it may work.

So here is my plan:
A. FET 1 is now scheduled for Tuesday! He seems very confident that my lining can support implantation and a pregnancy.

B. FET 2 will begin as soon as AF arrives, we will continue on the same med protocol and add the biopsy.

C. FET 3 with a gestational carrier.

It is really hard to wrap my head around the fact that my body has failed me in two different ways. How is it that one person can have both egg issues and lining issues? It just doesn't seem fair.

So for now I am going to do everything to get my head around the upcoming transfer. I really need to hear some real stories of successful transfers with less than a 7 mm lining. The one thing the doctor told me was not to stress over the things I can't change. I can't change my lining. It is what it is. I just have to hope that I have enough pluses on my side to make this really work.

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After the doctor appointment, we spent the day downtown. It was a gorgeous day in Denver, and we walked the city, ate lunch outside and even managed to do a little shopping in Barnes and Nobles (three guess for what I bought!).

I am going to take my new book with me to the doctor's office. My plan is to use it like an autograph book where every individual who played a role in getting me pregnant has a place to initial, write a message or sign their name. It will be a keep sake that I will treasure always (cue the corny music now).

-R.